Good Morning, I hope you are all well.
I was woken at 4am by the spirit and as some of you may know, it is not a feeling you ignore. I woke up anxious, amongst other things. I had a heavy sense of rage, and I must say that is something that I experience often. I will just get angry, and this morning just so happened to be that time. I have managed to calm down, I read my bible and I am ready to share the most transparent part of me. The Struggle.
Around The Sun
Last week Wednesday was my birthday and since then I’ve been in a non-stop thinking loop. In my last post, I commented on the position of my updated mindset for the coming year, and that was instantaneously adjusted. Despite us almost entering a New Year, I have just entered a new season of my life. Reaching my birthday itself, required me to start shedding skin. There are many qualities that I am attached to that need to leave. I often speak about the notion of unlearning and that is simply orchestrated by the desire I have for my personal growth and the understanding that I am called for more.
Can I be honest with you?
I am terrified of change.
It is not that I can’t adjust to the new, I just prefer to be comfortable. But that doesn’t work when you naturally shed skin. Hear me out. I can no longer hide behind the things I once knew because that was way back when. I can no longer be tied to things the old Glory adhered to. I can’t carry the skin that had fallen along with me because I have new skin. I am a new creation. I must say, I have had to deep that now.
What Did I Learn This Chapter Of My Life?
1. You’ve Been Called And You Have Answered
I have mentioned this a few times. I never wanted to write in the first place. I never wanted to speak in the first place. I was never transparent; I did not know how to communicate effectively, and I must say it is a massive area of struggle till now. I did not want to do the work of God but one day He called, and I answered and that has been have been the best decision for me.
2. It’s a ‘State’ and not a ‘Season’
When I feel as if I am going through something, I have the tendency of longing it out. I look at timelines, I look at whys, give me the stats I am looking at that because I like to understand. What I have learnt is that not everything is to be understood. I should stand up and rise and continue. Sometimes we delegate temporary trails and make them seasons when we have not been called to stay there.
3. You are not who you were and that’s okay
I have had to come to the agreement that I have changed and that’s okay. With changing as an individual, so does everything else. My environment had to have been the biggest change. What I still struggle with is appreciating that even those around me might still address me as someone who once was but I should be gland in the person who is and is yet to be.
4. It was always going to be okay
This year I have been tested in ways that I have not been able to fathom but God pulled through EACH AND EVERY TIME. It was always going to be okay.
AND THEN SOME...
A week into this new age I have had to question myself already. My surroundings, my environment, the whole lot. What will Glo look like in this coming chapter of her life? Who will she be? I have no idea. What I do know is that I am unlearning to learn. I have had to readjust my pace in order to understand the simplicities of loving who God created. Knowing who I am in every dimension is the goal, learning how to respond better to situations, learning how to be a better person, learning how to love myself, learning how to be me in this new skin and then some.
I expand into a little more detail on the audio. I hope this blesses you and gives you the urge to look at how your year has been, and be prepared to shed skin. I love you all, and with that being said, Thank you for tuning into another episode of Couch Talks With Glo.
Glo x
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