Hi my loves.
I know. Where have I been? I've been asking myself the same thing. November did me in many ways but I’m back.
“I feel everything, yet I feel nothing”, is where my life has been this November. There were high times and a lot of lows. I was really tested in this season of my life but I am here.
Mindset Update
I had really struggled mentally. I was at war constantly and this had been the first time in a long while that I had experienced this. This really projected in everything that I did. In my work ethic, in my social life, you name it, it was tarnished. What I struggled the most is the fact that I know everything will work out for its own good but I didn’t want to feel hopeful. I wanted to WALLOW in my sadness. I look back on life and I know I've been through way worse but why was this one hitting harder?
Let me explain.
When you are being elevated, there will always be a force trying to bring you down. It is science. It is the law of nature. When I think of the notion of gravity, its job is to keep everything on the ground. So who is the gravity in your life? BRO? I KNOW? What is keeping you on the ground. I was battling this question for many weeks.
What I found difficult is the fact that I am being elevated, there is genuinely growth in my life, there are doors being opened for me, there's a specific route that God is taking me down and as soon as I get close to my destination there are road works. Let me tell you, the gravity was me. I was the very thing pulling myself down. A very unintentional act but its all I've ever known. I have been trying to unlearn habits that would cause me to remain stagnant.
I must say. It has been a refreshing journey. I have been able to assess my environment, what needed to stay and what needed to go. What I had learned during this season is that:
1. Trust God and the process
2. Remain Obedient even when you want to do things of your own accord
3. Remember to be the best version of yourself because that is what matters the most.
What I understood about the season that I was in, was that I was in preparation for blessings in abundance. I know feeling low is a little crap, it is but where you will be is nothing compared to the joy you will feel reaching that destination. My loves, it feels good to be back, I will attempt to remain consistent! Let’s pick up this conversation, find me on Instagram @Couchtalkswglo or email me @couchtalkswglo@gmail.com, I love you all, thank you for tuning into another episode of Couch Talks With Glo.
Glo x
For So Much More